31 Weeks 4 Days

My appointment with Dr. B was this morning and all went well. I'm finally able to stomach fruits and veggies, so I haven't gained any weight (can I get an "AMEN"?!). I had my Group B strep test, am still measuring more than a week ahead, and Dr. B told me that he won't let me go past my due date ~ I've never heard sweeter words spoken. Everything is well as far as all that goes. I do, however, need to vent about something. I'd apologize for making y'all read the following rant, but it's my blog and I'll cry if I want to...

My job has become everything that I hoped it would never become. We hired a co worker's friend and I have become 'odd man out'. There are whispers behind my back, the two of them make work decisions without communicating with me, they both spend the week adding up their hours to see how early they can leave on Fridays (ridiculous when on Friday we only work till noon, yet get paid for the full day...you can't even come in for four stinkin' hours??). They gossip, they go out to lunch and ask everyone else to go ~ except for my friend, Miss S, and myself; they sit on their asses until the boss comes around then suddenly make themselves busy, they don't keep up with their responsibilities sometimes and, until now, I've felt obligated to pick up the slack. I've had it up to my eyeballs with this. I am shy and awkward and this was one of very few places that I've felt comfortable and that comfort is gone. It takes all the strength I can muster not to cry almost on a daily basis and I am totally stressed out because now I don't know if I can come back to work in an environment like this after my maternity leave is over. My small piece of comfort lies in the fact that I am not the only one who has noticed this behavior. So, I come to work and try (usually without much success) to focus on my duties and count the hours until I can go home. It is a miserable way to spend the day.

There are a zillion more things I could fuss about, but that is the gist of it. I'm just trying to look forward to all the exciting new things that are about to happen and, hey ~ who can be depressed for too long when Christmas is right around the corner? There's a Christmas tree that I saw in the paper that I want, but it's totally out of my price range at this point. I hate the fake trees with the metal or plastic cross supports on the bottom (even with a tree skirt it's ugly). The one I like sits in an urn. So, maybe after the holidays I can get it on sale :) I wonder if I'll have enough energy by the time Christmas rolls around to decorate, anyway.

XOXO